Jon Doughboy 日 23/10/2024 · admin No comments

REFLUX

My daughter, my beautiful, big-boned, broad-shouldered, nose tackle of a daughter, has an eating disorder. So said her therapist when we were called in for group therapy and I said, “we’re not a group though, we’re a family,” which was an important distinction I thought, vital, even, because lots of people and things can group, congregate, come together, conglomerate—friends, teams, parishioners, bullets around a bullseye if you’re a capable shot—whereas family is family, irreplaceable, unique.

Michael Borth 日 04/09/2024 · admin No comments

THE ARCH MNEMOSYNE

Oleander in the structured darkness
Coma child on the tablet of wine
And the tree is a very slow explosion
From the black bread of the prayer
To the east of the fallow regression

To never have what is attained
In all the epochs of emotive tissue
I adhered to like a weak animal
Shaking in the highway distortion
Of what will never be flowered

They did try to warn me and to call
But I was subservient to inertia
I remained afraid of the world
In a long avenue of mythology
To hide myself in the soft error

Just a rotational game of pleasure
Which put me in those rooms
For the image is a strobe of water
In the sacral of the world cave
A ladder to distended mornings

I was simply trying to escape
By burning the floor with stillness
Rummaging for the fetid alms
Like a fawn for lost money and toy
To make one city for my disdain

To make one city of my origin
As if a campfire room in each polity
Waiting for me to warp the shadow
Urged by the complete blue magnetism
And to rehearse hatred for every beginning

Arzhang Zafar 日 27/08/2024 · admin No comments

LOWER

Trog stops. He’s floating in midair. The world becomes silent all at once, except for a distant voice. It could reasonably be described with words like matronly, beatific, ancient, hellfire missile, and lovely. Trog cringes. She is here, somewhere. Once he pays acknowledgement, she appears right in front of him. She is draped in a sheer veil, but there is nothing behind it. Maybe a shape. She is more place than person, a first home from earliest childhood. A window into oneself. She parts her curtains and the tendrils emerge. Trog readies himself. She is the earthling. The keeper of the dirt haven. The star-nosed mole. She wraps herself around him and takes him in. There is no cause for alarm. This is just another in a long series of dances. She squeezes Trog’s cheeks like a mother overcome with love. He is everywhere. He is being dragged across stars. He is being dragged over rolling green hills somewhere in the idyllic west. He is joining a funeral procession. A man is being lowered into a grave and he is Trog’s brother, but the other mourners are strangers. Trog wants to crawl into the grave, but he is dragged away. A million siblings are being lowered into the earth. They are lower than dirt. They are not lower than dirt. They are everywhere. She tells him that a cry comes out of the earth’s core. She tells him that the nonprofit industrial complex is his grandparent. She tells him that a trillion worms are crying out from their special places in hiding and they need him but his petty grievances are unwelcome in the land of blind things. She tells him that beneath the veil of the strip mall is a truth lying waiting for the abandoned child, and that truth is identifiable as a violation. She tells him that she is the avatar of the abandoned strip mall and she has been waiting for a hundred thousand years, raised aloft by an early human, hunting and gathering with visions of capitalism incomprehensible at the time, succeeded by an American advertising executive in the neolithic, succeeded by a bronze age technocrat, succeeded by a grand litany of freaks and perverts and abject former students with backward knowledge. Trog embraces her and smells anise and roses and cigarettes and sees utter blackness and he wants to be there for the rest of his life.

Björn Bermann 日 21/08/2024 · admin No comments

POSER

I wake up from a nightmare and reach over for my phone. My last act before sleep was switching my display to grayscale. My reels have unintentionally become demonic, with an estimated forty percent of them focusing on European racial violence. My thinking was, if I drain the color out, they’ll become lifeless and dead, unworthy of my attention.

It is six a.m.

I’ve woken up at sunrise (or close to it) for almost a week now, to recalibrate my circadian rhythm, which, safe to say, is fucked.

I have one notification: a message from what I hope will be my date today.

RG Vasicek 日 11/08/2024 · admin No comments

AMERI[K]A… A SORT OF PSEUDO-REALITY

Are your thoughts imported from elsewhere?

I write a novel under constant surveillance.

She cannot get my pants off fast enough. She wants my flesh inside her. Carnal knowledge.

She asks me questions. Interrogates.

I am in trouble this month.

I have no income.

I await the trickle of the future.

Is she coming?

Am I coming?

What do you tolerate in silence?